Worth it as a woman? Pretty and pained Talent and tainted delusion or destiny Emotional process, it’ll take many more years and tears and fears till it all gets right Was it done the wrong time? Was it inevitable? Pain my heart, afflicted every day,hour good enough, real enough, sure enough I kept on myContinue reading “Changes”
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WIN
I want to win The pink curtains flutter in the warm room the vestiges of summer sunlight revealing ace beginnings of fall I want to win whether I have 100 or 0 friends I want to win even when I fall I want to win when I can’t walk and maybe I ‘ll crawl IContinue reading “WIN”
Boy crazy and Beauty
Boy crazy always wanting a hug wanting to be felt wanting sweet kisses and holding of hands Fantasizing about being someone’s lady To be so good and told over and over again you not good enough And she hears it so much it stampeded on her head with a weight that wakes one up thatContinue reading “Boy crazy and Beauty”
Ugly beautiful things I see you shining baby glistening Intensely decadent u kno my name My face you sense my scent and pull me Profusely regret less ugly beautiful things I can’t resist my lips they twitch My eyes glaze I hover as I’m grazed And I pay taxes with no return Anyway Ugly beautifulContinue reading
Mad
Angry with GOD I took a drink it burns my throat And chest and cools my pain I have no shame I feel nothing all the same Cold in freezing tears staining the many faces Of my short young years.I have no place,no right. No right to even write this but at times I beContinue reading “Mad”
Hurt me Hit me Hurt me Hit me HIGH TO COME DOWN TO earth come back down Erratic,pulsing HATEFUL VERMIN Worship ugly beauty filled demons. Pose struck for a reason Steady sexy camera teasing My shit stinks A combination of weed and fast food Liquor,sodas packed with sugar Candy,fruits shameless dietary habits of youth PassingContinue reading
On riding waves
I think that depression is a normal state of being. I think that it gets this energy behind it that calls for it to be fixed. The lows and the downs are made into problems that can be solved. I think that depression has value. I think that we underestimate how potent its’ value is.Continue reading “On riding waves”
You wanna be me
You know what I can’t stand about you? Your audacity to think you can ever do it like me, to think you can ever be me I’ll admit at first it was flattering , maybe even an homage to the bad asses like me that you n ya ilk look towards but then it wasContinue reading “You wanna be me”
Oakland, a rebuttal
Oakland is a whole feeling. This is what I thought when my Bart train emerged from the other side and showed me the first sights of what used to be a mythical creature. It differs profoundly from San Francisco which is strange for a New Yorker like me. Like Manhattan, Bronx and Brooklyn are allContinue reading “Oakland, a rebuttal”
Don’t expect too much
Least of all from one person to you. Time and time again you put your belief in someone , you hope that you are to them what they are to you. And it doesn’t take long to realize that is not the case. And interest and investment is fleeting. And all your gifts and allContinue reading “Don’t expect too much”
Big Black Trans and Beautiful 