Coming out for trans people is different. I don’t even know if I would describe it as a coming out. More of a coming in. And that coming in part is when you begin your transition. Transition never stops, it isn’t even one thing. It is everything , all the time, in all the ways.Continue reading “Letting Myself be known”
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Black Hipster
Lying down on her thigh side In the bachelorette pad Youtube blasting Indie mix oct 22 thinking of nothing and everything. Sipping a cold brew the sky a turquoise in the dimmed room the sun setting and the meal is made steak, chuck with fat yellow rice gotta have that the candle, balsam im talkingContinue reading “Black Hipster”
You won’t always feel good
I realize more and more that being good, loving life, smiling at the sun shining and the kids laughing won’t always come how I would like . I find sometimes that I’ll be feeling so good and the threat of something eroding that good feeling, that peace will be lurking just around the corner. AndContinue reading “You won’t always feel good”
Wellness
Aspiring to be the bad assed bitch who says whatever I want. I want it always unfiltered and unapologetic. Not trying to win fans or converts, just listeners. I have the tendency to blurt out things and regret what I said. But I realize that actually what was blurted out was at the top ofContinue reading “Wellness”
Happy 100th post
I started this blog on July 16,2021. This was a big leap for me to put my words out in the world. To discuss my trauma, my transition, my sexuality, my views on race and culture, being taboo and just the myriad of ways, things and thoughts that make me so beautifully complicated and whole.Continue reading “Happy 100th post”
Work woes
Has it always been like this or did the pandemic just change things? I envy the seemingly much more balanced work life systems that are present in Europe. These European countries seem to really care about their people with their mandated month long vacations, paid maternal and paternal leave and there always seems to beContinue reading “Work woes”
Fried Chicken Lover
Fried chicken feels like home Fried hard and crispy, a mess and twisty , the seasonings burst in my mouth as the crunch massages my ear. My teeth come down and meet the sweetest cooked flesh of that blessed chicken And Im grinning and Im winning and Im finning and im sinning , my gluttonyContinue reading “Fried Chicken Lover”
Third wind
Stella aint got shit on me Sunlight filtered through the window shining light on all the mess caused by last night. Jorge’s movements next to me stirred me awake and to a pounding headache and sore jaw. And then it came to me. It had been Homo Night at Nikki’s bar. The place was packedContinue reading “Third wind”
Champagne’s Conflict
Champagne woke up wanting somebody. It had been a minute since she’d had that touch that said,” You’re special,you’re sexy, you’re woman”. Had been a minute since she had even heard the words despite a rather robust sexual life. She assumed the position of easy to please and adjustable for any pose or position. TheContinue reading “Champagne’s Conflict”
“Break My Soul” and My Pride
Beyonce’s song ,” Break my Soul” dropped on me like a wake up smack this morning. I got my whole life hearing the heavy house themes and Mrs. Queen Bey and Big Freedia. It activated every juicy Queer bone in me and made me echo a ” Yass” out loud. It took me back toContinue reading ““Break My Soul” and My Pride”
Big Black Trans and Beautiful 