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Letting Myself be known

Coming out for trans people is different. I don’t even know if I would describe it as a coming out. More of a coming in. And that coming in part is when you begin your transition. Transition never stops, it isn’t even one thing. It is everything , all the time, in all the ways.Continue reading “Letting Myself be known”

Black Hipster

Lying down on her thigh side In the bachelorette pad Youtube blasting Indie mix oct 22 thinking of nothing and everything. Sipping a cold brew the sky a turquoise in the dimmed room the sun setting and the meal is made steak, chuck with fat yellow rice gotta have that the candle, balsam im talkingContinue reading “Black Hipster”

You won’t always feel good

I realize more and more that being good, loving life, smiling at the sun shining and the kids laughing won’t always come how I would like . I find sometimes that I’ll be feeling so good and the threat of something eroding that good feeling, that peace will be lurking just around the corner. AndContinue reading “You won’t always feel good”

Wellness

Aspiring to be the bad assed bitch who says whatever I want. I want it always unfiltered and unapologetic. Not trying to win fans or converts, just listeners. I have the tendency to blurt out things and regret what I said. But I realize that actually what was blurted out was at the top ofContinue reading “Wellness”

Off College Ave

Keep pushing baby, keep pushing hard You gon fall real hard and bump your head You gon be dry fucked without a sheet to bite You gon freeze and burn up without a coat You gon contemplate on empty days picking up trash And putting it in your mouth You gon know dirty train seatsContinue reading “Off College Ave”

Happy 100th post

I started this blog on July 16,2021. This was a big leap for me to put my words out in the world. To discuss my trauma, my transition, my sexuality, my views on race and culture, being taboo and just the myriad of ways, things and thoughts that make me so beautifully complicated and whole.Continue reading “Happy 100th post”

Being woman enough

A hang -up of mine that I try to work on is the persistent feeling of being inadequate as a woman. Of not having certain attributes, life-experiences or enough validation as a woman. This hang up is present the most on days when I feel low and I see a woman , most likely cisContinue reading “Being woman enough”

Work woes

Has it always been like this or did the pandemic just change things? I envy the seemingly much more balanced work life systems that are present in Europe. These European countries seem to really care about their people with their mandated month long vacations, paid maternal and paternal leave and there always seems to beContinue reading “Work woes”

Fried Chicken Lover

Fried chicken feels like home Fried hard and crispy, a mess and twisty , the seasonings burst in my mouth as the crunch massages my ear. My teeth come down and meet the sweetest cooked flesh of that blessed chicken And Im grinning and Im winning and Im finning and im sinning , my gluttonyContinue reading “Fried Chicken Lover”

Shout out to The Chi

I love The Chi ,Lena Waithe’s showtime show. This show always has the most realistic characters and storylines that center the Black experience and nuances of life in a major metropolis for Black people. I love the wide array of different kinds of characters we get to see from smart, sensitive super teen Kevin, fromContinue reading “Shout out to The Chi”