Being happy with those shards you give me seems like a betrayal of self. Gloating I replay every moment of our time together. Thinking of how lucky I am to have you at that moment. My obsession fuels your growing disdain. And you think of cute ways to tell me to fuck off. You don’tContinue reading “Shreds”
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Decision
Yvette woke up on that Tuesday in March with her head hurting. The tears yesterday had erupted like waterfalls out of her eyes, it was absolutely endless the way the tears flowed. Tyrone, her boyfriend for six years had totally shitted on her on her birthday. He’d promised that he’d go to dinner with her,Continue reading “Decision”
Fea
She hoped this one would be the one. The one who would finally bring her to relief. It was time and she was so tired of being tired. Lord only knows, how hard she tried to be better, to want better, to do better only to end up falling on her ass again and againContinue reading “Fea”
Ms .Tammy
Everybody need somebody. I tell you if that ain’t the Good Lord truth right there. Don’t matter if you a billionaire mogul or a bum laying under the bridge. We all wanna be thought about sometimes. That shit hit harder now at my age. I’ll be 58 in August which shocks the shit outta meContinue reading “Ms .Tammy”
Predator Pleasure
I touch that soft weighty part between your thighs as you fantasize about mine And you love all my parts and pieces And hate yourself and hate me for having them You look me up at night on sordid websites where my sisters perform and play with men dates your contemporaries.You seek me out, somehowContinue reading “Predator Pleasure”
What I know
But all I can say is that it can be tough and confusing to be a transwoman. As lonely and rejecting as that truth can be, I acknowledge the flow to my person. And i am very much my own woman even if by the narrow margins of ‘woman’ and ‘transwoman’ I never fit. IContinue reading “What I know”
Boy crazy and Beauty
Boy crazy always wanting a hug wanting to be felt wanting sweet kisses and holding of hands Fantasizing about being someone’s lady To be so good and told over and over again you not good enough And she hears it so much it stampeded on her head with a weight that wakes one up thatContinue reading “Boy crazy and Beauty”
Home Can’t Be Home Again When They take it away
I’ve always found the phrase forgive or forget to be too simplistic to ever serve as a go to for resolving conflicts or getting over a transgression. I think at the heart of it ,it is asking the wronged to erase the episode in one way or another. Make it blank , clear it outContinue reading “Home Can’t Be Home Again When They take it away”
They get us young and pretty
The violence that afflicts the lives of Black trans women keeps us wondering when. When be the day that we are a headline, a mis-gendered corpse that elicits hashtags and sweet memories from those who claim to know us best. I’ve written before about keeping up with my murdered kin, if for no other reasonContinue reading “They get us young and pretty”
MAD AS FUCK
My Uber driver made me cry today. I self flagellate sometimes because of my inability to be a “nice person”. I’m not the one who is going to make small talk and look for friends everywhere I go. I work hard at being aloof and not engaging with people often. And I realized today whatContinue reading “MAD AS FUCK”
Big Black Trans and Beautiful 